our body shakes in throws, holds me apart, until the self hangs freely from the ceiling. it’s a good thing our mouths are our thoughts and aligned with the towering rhythms, the broken voices, made into one.
if we could build this world, we would slip cracks into the stones and long for the low shake in the ground. the halls are many, the ruins are ours.
it trickles down the stairs in quiet streams and falls away. blocked imagery. I fall into it. ten ghosts rattle the cage, but my ribs are so thick there’s no sound inside.
there used to be sea creatures beneath my feet, bony silhouettes in black marble. I run my finger along their spines, along a curved sky, the soft nothing, and breathe it away. I watch entire cities disperse in mid-air. towers fall into the water, bricks crumble in the sun. I destroy thoughts this way. I create worlds to tear them apart.
Danny saw the lake dancing, crashing, overflowing. He watched it from the house, head up, neck straight like it was cut. I say I don’t care but I do. These big waves, a storm in sunlight, drowning my childhood in pools of brown. Was I frightened at all? House rattling, flood high and climbing, an orange sky clinging to his arms.
this room is white and dirty and too small for conversations. sadness or maybe just a sense of discomfort. she envisions others, in this moment, clutching wine bottles in candle lit basements and at the edge of chairs by fat notebooks. it’s all a big fucking mess! get off the road in a flaming accident where there’s noise and people die big deaths in the deep black-brown mud of nowhere. silver sands, sweat on the walls.
I look down, the grey spectres are fading. Wind crashes against me up here and grabs my hand with familiar fingers that pull and pull hard in all directions. The entirety of the world below, thousand grains and shadows. Bow for me as I reach my arms to the sky and eat of the stars like fruit. Can you see, the stains on my neck are are fading too? When I scream the world will know it. I give in again and again.